I am pleased to read your letter and appreciate your devotion and the idea of dedication to Sant Mat. But you know that we can give away only those things that belong to us, and here is the thing. We constantly think and talk of our mind as if it belonged to us, but the truth of the matter is that in 99.9 percent of the cases we are under the grip of the mind. We discover this painful fact when we are advised to do something which the mind does not accept. Then the struggle begins. The supreme mystery lies within us, but the mind rebels and refuses to go in or does so only for a short while because it is accustomed to enjoy the phenomenal sensual world.
The first step, therefore, is to go in by simran or constant repetition of the holy Names, which are given at the time of initiation, and to withdraw if not all the body consciousness, then as much of it as possible to the centre between the two eyebrows and then catch the divine melody, the Shabd or the Word, which is ringing in all of us.
You can serve me best by serving yourself, that is, by cultivating a detached outlook and attending to the spiritual practices known as simran and bhajan, which will be explained to you at the time of initiation.
Your devotion and your determination are praiseworthy. Please remember that the Satguru himself steps forward to help such people when difficulties arise, if they keep up their struggle with faith.
Maharaj Charan Singh, Light on Sant Mat